It Sucks to be You!
By David Glenn Cox
It has been a strange weekend, fabulous, interesting, maudlin, magnificent and informative. Sometimes, even though you already know something you still need to have it explained to you. A tiger’s claw education, swift and remorseless and though we feel the blame, we cannot in good conscience blame the tiger.
In 1925, a new ore ship was added to the Cleveland – Cliffs Iron Company line plying the Great Lakes hauling, coal, iron ore or grain. She was six hundred and eighteen feet long and sixty two feet across. She carried the wealth of a nation and her nickname was “The ship that built Cleveland,” because of her frequent deliveries of iron ore to Cleveland steel mills.
Her keel was laid in Ecorse, Michigan. And as I walked her decks I read from her name plates. Johnson Winch Company, New York, New York her electrical power supplied by a Caterpillar Diesel Engine, Chicago, Illinois mated to a General Electric generator, Cleveland, Ohio. She had the first automated boiler system on the Great Lakes supplied by Bailey controls of Cleveland Ohio.
In 1941, the Mather led a flotilla of ships to Duluth Minnesota to break ice and return with a cargo of badly needed iron ore destined for America’s war plants. Her crew risked their lives in frozen dangerous waters because the country asked them to take the risk. Her crew of thirty had good jobs and a strong union to protect them.
The work was hard dirty and thankless, hot in the summer and frozen in the winter and the William G. Mather plied the Great Lakes for over fifty five years. Her cooks serving the crew sit down meals on china plates. Meals served with salads and with pie with ice cream for desert. As I walked her decks it occurred to me that two generations of American men had lived their lives her decks. These workmen who made the three AM deliveries in Detroit, Buffalo or Toledo.
She impressed me most with her Americanism, she was all American from stem to stern, American built, American owned and American sailed. She was stout and well constructed with a handmade sign scrawled on the door in the tool room with a magic marker. “Don’t mess up this tool room, OR ELSE.” I could see the grousing boiler chief writing this on the back of the door. Not a company bulletin or a TPS report but a message from an American to other Americans.
As I left the Mather, I was somewhat sad, because she was wonderful and welcoming. Just think, there was work for a six hundred foot ore freighter for fifty five years and now she was a museum, a relic for our children to try and understand an America which they would never, ever, ever, be able to fathom. Eight and a half tons of steel molded by American hands into a cargo ship. A ship built without a single foreign made part, every nut and bolt, every piece of her fabricated by American hands and installed with American workmanship.
We wandered past the plastic guitars outside the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame headed for the USS Codfish, a gato class WW2 submarine which is also a museum. This was a WW2 high tech weapon of war. She was the equivalent of today’s stealth bomber. She was loaded from stem to stern with high tech weaponry manufactured in places like Connecticut, New York and Philadelphia. She achieved what the German Kriegsmarine only dreamed of doing. She swept the seas of Japanese vessels.
As we followed the tour we entered the rear torpedo room and there sat a 90 year old veteran who had served as a motorman on the Codfish, and in his honor they cranked the ships engines. In less than five minutes and with just a few minor adjustments they started up the 70 year old Cleveland built General Motors diesel engines. The thought of spending 74 days on a standard patrol inside a tiny iron box would drive me right over the edge. Yet this man did it, he was depth charged and he lost ship mates but he did what was expected of him.
The crew was served the best food in the Navy, because they deserved it. His ship was air conditioned because his government thought it necessary. He served his time aboard her right in the enemy’s backyard, facing death each day but she was an American ship, every bolt and every weld American and the only foreign label you can find aboard her are the flags of the enemy vessels she sank.
At the war’s conclusion, her sailors left the service eligible for a full college education, gratis, from a grateful nation. But was it that simple? The G.I. bill was a jobs program. If all twelve million men under arms were to join the workforce at the same time we might have ended up back at 1932. Instead, government offered education delaying entry into the workforce by four years.
These soldiers, sailors and airmen became chemists, engineers and doctors. They earned higher salaries and paid higher taxes and they didn’t complain because government had kept its bargain with its people. Those without degrees, worked in the steel mills, or they loaded the ore boats and worked the docks. They were fishermen or office workers who earned a decent living.
I had a lunch date with a very nice lady and for a blind date she was definitely all that and a slice of pie. Only, it very quickly became apparent that we were from different worlds. She was from the world of new cars and twenty five dollar lunches and I was from the world of food stamps and the broke ass poor. Several times she referred to my “lifestyle” and both times I corrected her. “This isn’t a life style,” I explained, “I didn’t ask for this.”
“Do you keep a home in Atlanta?” I was torn, as no man wants to meet a nice lady and explain, “I’m broke ass poor.” Our meeting ended soon after, and I don’t blame her. She was looking for full stockings and presents under the tree not some rough character from the wrong side of the tracks. We were as different as race horses and humming birds. Strange isn’t it, I could listen to her problems and empathize, but my problems only horrified her.
But I am the SS William G. Mather, I am an American. I am the USS Codfish and I can do any job I’m offered. Yet I am tied off to the dock and laid up as a curiosity. This isn’t a lifestyle, it is a punishment, from a government which no longer keeps its promises, it is purgatory from which there is no escape.
There was a time three years ago when this purgatory began when I just wanted to just curl up and die. A time when I thought this was all about me. Then I found my true calling, to explain this purgatory and this existence to anyone who will listen but more and more, there are two kinds of Americans. The Americans who are waiting for Santa Claus and the Americans who know Santa ain’t coming. From my experiences this weekend, I take great pride in my people and great pride in myself because no matter what, I won’t quit. I’ll continue until I die or until this plague is lifted from us.
If that means I shall spend my days alone, I shall be alone. If that means I’ll spend my days broke ass poor, I’ll be broke ass poor. Those of you, who understand living the Santa less universe, understand. Those of you who don’t understand, never will, some things are bigger than our egos or our feelings. Some things are bigger than our desires and even our lives. Some things need to be said, shouted from the roof tops, recorded for posterity and this is one of those events. The story of a people debased, impoverished and robbed. The story of children without a future and a story of those who have plenty who say, it sucks to be you.
“It has always seemed strange to me…The things we admire in men, kindness and generosity, openness, honesty, understanding and feeling, are the concomitants of failure in our system. And those traits we detest, sharpness, greed, acquisitiveness, meanness, egotism and self-interest, are the traits of success. And while men admire the quality of the first they love the produce of the second.”- John Steinbeck



11 Comments

I spent about twenty minutes yesterday talking to a homeless man that I had approached to give my lunch money. He, too, is broke-ass poor and has done an amazing number of things looking for a job in the past 2.5 yrs, since he stopped drinking (on his own). The state of Oregon managed to squeeze almost $100 out of him in order for him to get state issued ID, most employers will not hire anyone without a drivers license, they only hire young people in the oilfields (many are actually natural gas fields too) in North Dakota, Texas, Arkansas … employers want a resume. The unemployment office will not try to place anyone in our town unless they take training. (This includes soldiers recently deployed to Iraq that thought the armed services training counted for something).
He showed me a small iron thing he carries around to heat / cook food. Says the only benefits or incoming value stream he has is SNAP. Carries a huge pack.
Our country treats people who are down and out miserably. Get down once, whether you do it by bad decisions or bad luck, and we just kick you again and again. .. and most people are quite happy with that. It makes me just want to shreek.
Are they happy or are they feeling helpless?
Sorry, I really don’t understand your comment. Happy about what?
Excellent diary entry, Dave -
Highly rec’d, of course!
The lady you saw was only parroting what she’s been taught for at least half her life, if not all of it: Poverty is a choice. If you lost your job, well, you made the choice of accepting it in the first place so you knew the risks. You’ve hit hard times? Well, that’s because of YOUR choices, not hers, so you have no right to expect her or anyone like her who has made the RIGHT choices to pay the way for your lazy and/or stupid ass.
She is probably a perfect example of what Obama calls the “middle class,” though I have no idea if she fits Romney’s definition, since he’s given no sign what he thinks that is.
It’s ironic that those fine ships, those paragons of American ingenuity and determination, were built and manned by working class folks. For Obama, Romney, and the rest of our ruling classes, none of those people are worth a damn. They don’t count.
Anyway, great post. Recc’d, as usual.
You should think of offering to do an internet show for PRN.FM. You have a talent for communicating the emotional content of being poor in America, in a way that others who lack both your experience and talent, are unable to.
It’s analogous to the difference (as explained to me) between Old Testament prophecy, and prediction. The poetry of prophecy is more likely to catalyze a change in spiritual consciousness (which is supposed to be the purpose of prophets), than mere prediction.
My dear daveparts, I so enjoy (not right word — perhaps ‘am nourishshed by) your posts. Recently heard Noaqm Chomsky poo=pooing the idea of speaking truth to power. “Power,” he said, “knows what the truth is. It is the people you have to speak truth to.” Keep on speaking, prophet.
Well, hummingbirds find other hummingbirds, and racehorses find other racehorses (often with help, but that has become a very lucrative industry!).
I guess what you need is a lady racehorse, or a lady hummingbird, depending. Lots of ‘em out there, and thinking that they will be alone forever, too.
Thank you, for your kind words
Sorry to be so cryptic. I was replying to comment #1, but perhaps I didn’t include enough of his comment to be intelligible. 2nd try:
I’m just wondering, are people as callous as they seem or does the challenge of changing anything for the better seem insurmountable?
Dearest daveparts, you are so obviously(to this reader)on the perfect path for your truest talent, your writing is sublime & profound.I have lived on foodstamps & welfare at one time in my life,but the specter looms into the future as well with the simple loss of a job or a health downgrade for me or my husband.
I just fear I don’t have your ability to withstand the rigors of such a life. That you are able to convey poverty so well without the fear inherent in such a life speaks volumes for the content of your character. Thank you for the post.
your friend Sharon
Although we are not homeless we understand, David. It wasn’t all that many years ago that we never gave a backward thought to buying all our groceries from Whole Foods. Now we get our food from dumpsters. We are not alone, by any stretch. Thank you for the lovely essay, the history and the message. Beautifully written, rec’d.