So this is potentially a short diary, and it’s a slight rehash of an earlier one i’ve written, however I have to get it off my chest.

I was not thrilled to see Coakley lose in MA, let me start there. I wasn’t sobbing for the loss either, mind you. In the weeks that have followed however, i’ve heard some awefully populist rumblings from the administration so i’m actually leaning to thinking it was actually a good thing.

However, it’s opened a huge sore on my psyche that the Bush years had plastered over. I am not content not being represented in government any longer.

I am a dual citizen. I hold U.K. and U.S. citizenship. I have lived in the U.K. ( for a decade ) Canada ( over a decade ) and the U.S. ( just over a decade ). That makes me…well, over 30 anyway. It also means that i’ve experienced 3 political systems quite intimately.

So I wonder to myself, why is it that the ONLY way I can vote for a political party that matches my ideology is when I vote in U.K. elections? When I vote in U.S. elections, I feel like i’m voting against the party that matches my views the least. I don’t feel that way, actually. That’s how I have approached it, year after year. Each election cycle, i’m filled with a sinking dread that i’m going to end up voting for a centrist democrat ( I live in Republican California, the Southern bit )if I want to exercise my vote at all.

Year in and out I watch my elected representatives move this country away from serving the needs of it’s people to that of the corporate masters either very quickly (R) or less quickly (D). It’s soul crushing, to say the least.

So i’m done with this abusive relationship. I’m not going to listen to the mealy-mouthed platitudes of "I can change, honest" that stream from the Democratic party’s mouth in the run up to elections. I’m done firing off donations to a party that hasn’t ever represented me, merely not actively hosed me like the other party has. Basically, i’m doing the only thing I have in my power to do, and that is giving my vote to no one unless they actually DO represent me. I’ve already felt the ire of Democrats who don’t like to hear this. I’m met with "oh sure, let the GoP win…that’ll show them" or some other such refrain whenever I state my view that i’m done supporting the status quo.

Let me be very clear: I Don’t Care. As long as enough people continue to enable this sick farce of a democracy, we will continue to have similar results. We will continue to have HUGELY popular Democratic presidents who actually sell us out ( NAFTA, repealing Glass-Steagall ) and immensely effective Republican presidents who finish us off with the help of Democratic representatives.

There are two silver linings for me in all this. The first of which brings me back to Coakley’s loss in MA. The electorate ( on the Democratic side ) apparently had similar feelings as I do and from what I can tell caused some quaking in corporate sponsored boots. Sure, there are some who have taken the message to mean that the dem’s need to be more centrist but at least it shows that they WILL listen when you exercise your power over them. The second silver lining is, I can still vote in England and eventually retire in Canada should I so choose. I’d rather help make this country a better place for everyone, and will continue to do so, but it’s nice having options.