It was the summer of 2001. The Operation Rescue people were back with a new name. The play book was the same but it didn’t quite work. I learned a lot about Dr. Tiller’s clinic that week and a lot about who was on which side.
I had gotten a letter and an e-mail from the Religious Coalition for Reproductive Choice, an organization that I’ve been associated with on and off for two decades. They were looking for help—money actually, aren’t they all?—to deal with the 10 year "revival" of the "Summer of Mercy" when thousands of people came to Wichita in an attempt to close down Dr. George Tiller’s Clinic. Between 1991 and 2001 Operation Rescue had been dissolved due to law suits and huge financial penalties assessed to the organization. They just re-dubbed themselves "Operation Save America."
So I got this letter and I called and left a message for the person organizing the effort. I had looked at my calendar and saw that those days in July were open. It took a while and more phone calls before they said we’d love to have you join us. I booked a flight to Wichita, packed my clerical collar and shorts and took off. I waited for a while at the Wichita airport for others who I was told would be arriving and soon there were four of us headed in a rented van into the city. Home hospitality was offered to me but when we found out it was way out of town, the RCRC staffer offered to share her room at the local hotel with me.
We stayed at the La Quinta in town which I learned was where many of Dr. Tiller’s patients would stay when they made the long journey from far away to his clinic. The procedures done by Dr. Tiller were not the kind that you easily walk away from and then go back to work. Women and their partners or friends would stay at the hotel for a day or two at least and be looked after by Candy, the hotel manager, another of the Wichita saints whose compassion could not be matched.
We spent that week in Wichita in 103 degree heat behind snow fences constructed by the locals in front of the clinic. The police had decided NOT to separate the two "sides," those supporting the clinic and those trying to shut it down. I think they wanted something violent to happen, frankly. And the people on the other side had little children out there with them in the heat, some so small they were in strollers. Talk about child abuse!
It was 2001 which, technologically was light years away from 1991. We now had e-mail and web sites and lots of ways of communicating with people. We anticipated that they would be able to generate enough steam to bring thousands of people for the cause. It turned out when we counted them in a parade that there were all of about 900 of them total including lots of kids. We had about 250 from a huge variety of organizations from the young communists, to NARAL to a busload of Oberlin students. There were clinic workers and organizers from clinics around the country too. And there were the US Marshalls, ATF, and probably FBI along with the local cops. Also there were various characters from the Army of God, the people who bomb clinics and shoot doctors. It was tense, to say the least. (I learned after the week was over that the various law enforcement agencies were video taping and photographing US not the protestors, a real eye-opening jaw dropping revelation.)
Our aim was to be able to help and support patients coming to the clinic. They arrived in cars and went through an automated heavy duty fence into the parking lot. We hardly saw them but we wanted them to know they were supported. The other folks, of course, wanted to shame them and/or talk them out of it or prevent them from entering. So we jockeyed for positions at the visible front of the fence. Each day we got there earlier and earlier (6 am, then 5, then 4) in order to secure that position. It was insane.
One patient arrived in a car and her boy friend, seeing all of the people, just dropped her off—let her out of the car to face the crowd. Rev. Kathering Ragsdale went up to her and put her arms around her and bodily escorted her through the door. Katherine is a formidable figure and a wonderful pastor.
While there I befriended Candy the hotel manager. We had some long talks about Dr. Tiller, the clinic, the protesters. The sadness of the people who came from not only all over the US but from abroad needing the services that Dr. Tiller provided was palpable. These were wanted babies and something had gone horribly horribly wrong. I remember one case where a woman had been treated for breast cancer, had gone through 5 chemo treatments before her docs asked her if there was any chance she could be pregnant. Imagine both the horror of not having that routine question asked before the first treatment and then contemplating what all that chemo could do to a fetus. We’re not talking about Gerber babies in this practice. We’re talking about tragedies. One after another, day after day. And Dr. Tiller was known by ALL to be a loving, compassionate, caring physician doing God’s work in the worst of all possible circumstances. For that he was shot twice, his clinic repeatedly bombed and then he was ultimately murdered.
I learned some other things that week. Candy’s hotel was also the site of picketers. She would calmly take a cup of Coffee out to Troy Newman one of the protest leaders and chat with him until the time when they followed her daughter to school. That was past the limit. She knew the local cops and knew well the security men who worked at the clinic. They would pick up patients in the early morning hours to make sure they got to the clinic safely. There was a wide ranging network of loving caring people in that town despite the danger and the insanity. If anything, my four days in Wichita made me more dedicated to the cause of a woman’s right to be a moral decision maker in the case of her own reproductive fate.
Sadly, Candy died several years later from cancer. And now Dr. Tiller is gone.
How many people would voluntarily choose to live their lives with a target painted on their torso? I hope and pray that there are some dedicated courageous physicians who are willing to step in and keep that clinic open. The people there are truly doing God’s work.
I bless the memory of Dr. Tiller and offer profound thanks and prayers to his family and all who worked at and supported the work of his clinic. May he rest in peace at long last.
UPDATE:
Dr LeRoy Carhart will continue along with other rotating doctors to keep Dr. Tiller’s clinic open and serving patients.
I’ve met Dr. Carhart and he’s another prince of a man. Yes, he’s the one who brought the Nebraska case against the banning of a specific (and the safest in many cases) procedure for late term abortions. But he’s not a young man either. We need a new generation of really brave and dedicated providers to step up. The sooner the better.



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thanks so much Rev. as one who has volunteered as an escort, I take comfort in your words
God’s work indeed
Thank you for sharing this.
Beautiful RevDeb, thank you so much for this.
If only the reichwing had your heart and soul
Thanks for reading it.
It was a transformational experience.
Thanks for this. I’ve always thought it was such a horrible thing for people to go and try to deliberately humiliate a woman, who’s making a very, very difficult personal decision at a very, very difficult time in her life.
What they did to the doctor is an act of terrorism, pure and simple. And what you did was an act of charity, pure and simple.
Thanks be to God that you are in our midst and you were there that week. I’d respected you in the past, but I do so all the more.
Grace and peace to you,
Blessings to all
Thanks for this, RevDeb.
More thank yous, both for going to Wichita and for writing about your experiences there.
Does anyone know if there is a central listing of demonstrations to honor Dr. Tiller’s life and work? I’ve read that several spontaneous demonstrations have popped up, like the one in DuPont Circle in DC yesterday.
You are an extraordinary woman, Rev Deb. I wish I lived near enough to attend your church.
I’ve been fortunate to attend a couple of her services and they are very thoughtful, thought provoking and inspiring.
Thanks for this RevDeb. You are a compassionate person and we are richer for it.
RevDeb,
Thank you for revealing the humans behind the headlines. Your compassion comes shining through.
((((((RevDeb))))))
Thanks all.
We just came back from looking for a flowering shrub to plant over where we buried our little cat last Sat. It’s been a no good horrible very bad weekend all around.
Thanks for this, for what you have done and for what you are doing.
I really didn’t do much but show up. We all need to show up for all of the extremely brave people who go to work every day facing such hatred and anger. We need to support them any way we can.
I know from the time that my late wife was involved with running numerous PP clinics that all support is very valuable.
Forced-birth religious extemists engage in a dangerous, group-think mentality. Unfortunately, our media and our government feels the need to coddle them and their hateful behavior.
I am relieved to learn AG Eric Holder orders US Marshals Protection for Boulder provider Dr Warren Hern
How horrific it is that, in our culture, terror has succeeded in restricting women’s rights to access to legal medical treatment. It’s as if we live in some strange medieval country, where violence is accepted as a solution when evil cannot win at the ballot box or in the courtroom.
the fact is, Teddy that 87% of counties in the US of A don’t have providers. There’s ONE in all of MS. Abortion may be legal but it surely isn’t available. The reich wing has seen to that.
Did not know that. I know that first-trimester abortions can be readily had in Volusia County, Florida.
Later term abortions must be performed somewhere in Georgia of all places.
probably Atlanta.
Tiller’s clinic is one of only 3 clinics in the country that did what he did and saw the tragic cases he saw. The others are in CO and CA. Imagine having to travel half way across the country to get medical services knowing you were going to have to end a much wanted pregnancy? Imagine that trip there and then home again. If it weren’t for the compassionate care that women have received from Dr. Tiller and the others it would be more than tragic. It would be impossible.
Rachel had a very good piece today on this very issue: why bother to “outlaw” abortion when they [anti-abortion crowd] can just make it impossible to obtain.
Its indicative of the symbiotic relationship between conservative religious groups and our government and those who catapult the propaganda.
Most Americans advocate a woman’s right to choose. But you wouldn’t know that from the way our government and the media portray it day in and day out. They are on the side of right-wing, religious extremists, even when doctors are murdered.
Thank you RevDeb, as a pro-choice person of faith it is easy to feel isolated, so I appreciated this post for more than one reason.
Och, RevDeb, this is a moving post. Thank you for sharing this story.
I confess to having mixed feelings, am very torn re abortion, leaning towards a woman’s right to choose.
A close anti-abortion friend of mine perceives abortion as “cheap birth control” which I think is this issue’s equivalent of the “welfare queen”. It really is too simple to reduce abortion down to cheap birth control.
I was glad that a pro life caller to npr, today, explained that she would hope that the discussion would move off such extreme positions and onto how to prevent unwanted pregnancies among other issues. She, too, is frustrated by the position of all abortion is murder. I took this as a sign of progress amid the grief.
Peace.
a) there’s nothing cheap about having to have an abortion. In fact many women wind up carrying unwanted babies to term because they can’t afford it. How are they going to afford the babies?
b) the services provided by Tiller and the other late term clinics are not about birth control. They are all about tragic circumstances—fetal anomalies, dangerous, life threatening pregnancies, etc. Every patient that they see/saw has to have referrals from other doctors indicating the absolute need. It isn’t really about choice at that point. Really really sad.
Thank you so much for sharing this experience. You show that there is human kindness in our world where the murder of Dr. Tiller almost makes us give up hope.
You are blessed.
All I can get out is thank you, RevDeb
Thank you.
In the mid-90’s….
The thing that really gets me mad is this “partial birth” crap….. anyone in the medical profession knows how this works…….
First test to show anomalies of the fetus is around 14-15 weeks….. well too late for a first trimester abortion…….
Then they retest…… still positive….. referral to OB genesis and they so an amniocentesis and that shows the issue…….
so where are you now in weeks? you add the 15 weeks plus the testing, retesting, referral, amnio, and you are looking at something in the 20-24 weeks…..
I had a co-worker who had to go through this and their third child, a boy had trisome 23…. a certain death after a few weeks and they are the ones that look like elves with long fingers and pointed ears…..
It was the hardest decision this family had to make, devout Christians but they knew that they could not deal with or support a severely handicapped child and then deal with their death…. 24 weeks and now that option is gone……
The procedure is the safest of the many that can be performed…. SAFEST!
and they took it away…… another example of risking a mothers life…
I commented after the article in my local paper about how only women who really need late term abortions would get them. Here’s the response I got:
I mean, wow. How does one even begin to counter such rabid nonsense?
I might be able to have some good feeling in my heart for these ghouls (Operation Rescue types) if they would just state their piece without all the other BS they do. Except for one thing: their selfishness.
Yes, they are selfish. You’d think if they were THAT passionate that they would protest so much, they would adopt some of the babies they “save.”
It really makes my blood boil to see them: They just LOVE the feti, but once a baby is born, it’s everyone for himself. (You know that if a new mother gets welfare, she is a COMMIE.) None of them want to take in these babies that the parents obviously can’t take, be it their age or their finances, or other reasons.
No, too many of these “people” just want to harass and kill people — not HELP anyone. A distant relative of my family (by marriage) is part of this. And it truly sickens me. If they are so caring, why not adopt, if you want children? Or at least, have one blood child of your own and then adopt? What they do is have 5, 10, 15 … even 20 children of their own. And then protest and cheer when Dr. Tiller gets assassinated.
That is so sick and so mentally ill, it is astonishing. How Child Protective Services cannot take their children away from them is beyond me. I have seen a lot of children taken from parents, who weren’t nearly as abusive as these “people.” This article mentioned young children in 100-degree heat. And what about those, elementary-school age, protesting with signs of “aborted fetuses”? Is that child abuse for a 9-year-old to be carrying? YES! How about a 7-year-old holding protest signs saying “God hates fags?” (And make no mistake — this isn’t Fred Phelps. Many other “religious” ghouls do it, too.) Child abuse yet?
there are a half a million children looking for adoptive homes. If the right wing folks really wanted to show how much they care about children this statistic would not be.
And yes, they had their little kids carrying posters of bloody fetuses in 103 deg. heat. One guy started an argument with one of our folks and then put his 6 year old kid in the middle between them. There’s something very wrong about these people.
Is there no shame to the fact that with this lovely and emotional article, the ad immediately following it was from Heritage House, advertising ‘The tools you need to save the unborn (click to view over 1500 pro-life items) with a diagram of the footprints of a 10 week old fetus.
How in the world did THAT ad get into THIS blog entry???????
Hmm, well Comrade Xi came up with an interesting response to my expression of skepticism:
I’ll check this out.
As the mother of two adopted children…. It was my biggest argument for this nutcases……
has one so called pro-life person or group taken in a mother to support her during her pregnancy?
Has one PL adopted a child?
Have they supported adoption agencies and orphanages to help parent less children?
Any PL’er fund halfway houses that house pregnant women to live in while they decide on adoption or to raise their child?
Of course not….. that is logical, that is sensible, that is what Jebus would do …….
I’ve been assaulted for asking forced-birth folks if they’ve ever adopted any of the children they “saved.” They’re not pro-lifers, they’re low-lifers.
Thank you, RevDeb.
UPDATE:
Dr LeRoy Carhart will continue along with other rotating doctors to keep Dr. Tiller’s clinic open and serving patients.
I’ve met Dr. Carhart and he’s another prince of a man. Yes, he’s the one who brought the Nebraska case against the banning of a specific (and the safest in many cases) procedure for late term abortions. But he’s not a young man either. We need a new generation of really brave and dedicated providers to step up. The sooner the better.
Thank you, RevDeb!
Funny Wheelie Diva
One of the main reasons the so-called ‘pro-life’ movment has succeeded so well all these years is the public’s lack of awareness about aborticentrism– a fixation on abortion so strong as to preclude care for human life. It is a twelve-step program which addresses the members’ own deep psychological needs, rather than any “unborn innocent” or “sacredness of human life.” But since the public accepts the movement’s definitions of the nature of the struggle, it will look at this murder as just another bump in the otherwise smooth road of the righteous. For a closer look at aborticentrism, you just might want to look it up.
I am so saddened by Dr. Tiller’s murder. And I am so moved that Dr. Carhart will be helping to take care of his patients.
Many years ago when I worked for a pro-choice legal group we represented Dr. Carhart in his challenge to the “partial-birth” abortion ridiculousness. I was so impressed by him — a seemingly very ordinary man shouldering extraordinary burdens on behalf of us all — just as Dr. Tiller did and other providers do as well every day.
Hearing this news about Dr. Tiller’s colleagues helping out with his patients — I realize it’s a small thing — but it’s a small ray of hope for me on a very sad day.
Could not agree more that we need a new generation of brave young medical professionals (doctors and others) to stand up. Medical Students for Choice is a great group if you’ve not checked them out.
Thank you, RevDeb. I know families that have found themselves having to stay at that La Quinta for horrible reasons and good men and women at the National Abortion Federation who knew Dr. Tiller and his amazing staff professionally. The indifference of the local police and Federal agents tasked with protecting those dedicated to supporting a woman’s LEGAL right to choose has long shocked me and I am not at all surprised that you and those who stood with you were the focus of their interest and not the zealots on the other side. The added heartbreak of this murder taking place during morning service leaves me barely able to keep the hate from my heart. I pray that I and those of us who came to this movement out of compassion will not abandon our position of love. It is our greatest strength.
Thank you again.
I bit the bullet and turned on Bill O’Reilly on FNC to hear the ’Talking Points’ memo. I’m so angry, it’s been a long time since something upset me this much, even though I fully expected to hear what I heard.
He absolved himself of any connection with the murder. As far as he’s concerned, he was reporting the facts. Everyone coming out against him in the media are (and I quote) ’Fox News haters’. He accused Kos and Huffington of being biased and never writing one word in defense of the 60,000 abortions Tiller has performed. That Tiller represented himself as someone ’helping women’ was, to Bill, reprehensible.
He then proceeded to bring on ’guests’ who were most likely chosen to having similar viewpoints. Fair and balanced, my left knee. I changed the channel before I threw something through the screen (and I’m in a hotel, so that would not have been a good idea). Where is the website to sign up to protest Bill’s sponsorships? Let me at it…..
KO did a great job with this tonight. Rather than go to the sponsors which he says doesn’t accomplish much, we need to ask people to change the channel when we find ourselves in places that are showing Fox News. If they don’t change the channel we tell them why we are walking out. Rinse. Repeat.
Works for me.
Wonderful thought, but darned near impossible.
These folks watching O’Reilly not only are the same ones that watch Hannity and listen to Rush, but are the core folks that agree with and totally support this assassination.
Asking the core audience that watches O’Reilly to just change the channel won’t do the job.
For instance, where I’m working, Fox News is on in the breakroom. I don’t even know where the remote is, but folks watch it during their breaks and lunch. Not to mention I’m a contractor (considered a guest in the house, as it were), so I can’t make any suggestions like that.
I’m a blue-stater working in a red state, so my chances of making that difference are minimal. My boss’s boss today at lunch, for example, could only parrot that the doctor had performed 60,000 abortions, as if that were a good reason for the shooting.
per Lakoff people are hard wired to hear what they want to hear.
Sorry about the break room. I think Keith was talking about restaurants and bars and public waiting rooms.
I am at this point numb from it all. My outrage meter is broken.
I’d say I’m right behind you, but after reading some of the stuff from O’Reilly and Malkin, I want to step up to the front, please, and tell these people to open their unread Bibles and read the 10 commandments and Beatitudes (may’s well direct them to both the old and new testaments) and ask them to use either of those to justify the assassin’s actions.
the problem with the Bible is that you can use it to “prove” anything you want. It just won’t work on those people. They believe what they want to believe and hear what they want to hear. We are similar in that but most of us are open to hearing opposing viewpoints.
I’m just worn out at this point. Tomorrow is another day.
I wish there was more info. out there on why woman have “late term” abortions. Our daughter tried four years to conceive. She had a high tech ultra sound at a state of the art office in Beverly Hills. The equipment was more advanced than the knowledge of the M.D.s how to interpret the readings. They told her the fetus showed ominous readings and might need to be terminated. She and her husband had genetic tests. The wait for the result of those tests seemed an eternity. My daughter cried for days waiting. Bottem line, all was well. We have a wonderful grandson, starting college in Sept. with a full scholarship at a private university.
RevDeb, please let people know how difficult these very personal decisions are.
There is NO information in the media about the circumstances behind these sad choices. My heart has been heavy with grief at the killing of this wonderful doctor.
I just wrote an e-mail to Rachel Maddow suggesting that she do a story on this very subject. O’Reilly et al. paint a picture of flaky women deciding “on a whim” that they don’t want to have a child. In fact, the picture is far different, and it needs to be told: conjoined twins, one of whom has died and the other of whom won’t survive; babies without faces and/or brains, who won’t survive; fetuses with multiple severe abnormalities.
Until the true picture of the circumstances that produce the need for this procedure are presented, the discussion will volley between the Bill O’Reilly “baby killer” crap and the “now, now dear” sentiments of Obama et al. who “want to reduce the need for abortion” [i.e., more/better birth control; increased adoption].
The circumstances that cause a woman to seek a late term abortion will NOT be remedied by birth control or adoption. This is surgical procedure that is the business of no one except the woman and her doctor.
Rev Deb, I urge you to write to Rachel [Rachel@msnbc.com] with your story.
{{{RevDeb}}} Thank you.
This is a great diary!
RevDeb, thank you for this. Thanks for your service to the cause, too!